Fears of crashes

The reopening of the shops has brought opportunities to renew acquaintances with places long closed, particularly the antiques centre where are large model aircraft hangs from the ceiling. It is a model that caused me to ponder the word “synchronicity.”

Not having seen so much as an Airfix model of the aircraft previously, to have encountered a large scale model, suspended in the air above a shop was unexpected. It was even more unexpected to discover that it bore the number of the squadron with which my late father worked. A de Havilland Sea Vixen bearing the markings of 890 Squadron of the Royal Naval Air Service which had been based at HMS Heron, the Royal Naval Air Station at Yeovilton in Somerset.

The Sea Vixens had caused deep fear during childhood years, a fear recalled in memories of childhood discussed with my mother. To see a model of one unexpectedly seemed a scratching at a sore, a stinging of a rawness.

The psychologist Carl Jung described synchrocity asĀ “meaningful coincidences,” it is about events that have no causal relationship yet which seem to be meaningfully related. So discussing aircraft that once flew from RNAS Yeovilton and seeing a model of an aircraft that would have caused fear when it flew from the station have no causal relationship, yet the coincidence seems meaningful.

Perhaps the synchronicity is about a need to confront fears. The Sea Vixen would have inspired fear in any young boy: 145 of the aircraft were built, 55 of them were lost in accidents, 30 of those accidents were fatal, 21 of the accidents involved the loss of both the pilot and the observer. More than fifty men died flying in an aircraft that took no part in any war.

That stories of the Sea Vixen frightened a boy in the 1960s is readily understandable, any child whose father worked on aircraft that might unexpectedly come crashing from the sky would have reasonable grounds for fear, but why should there be a moment of synchronicity five decades later? Why should there seem a meaningful coincidence in discussing flights from Yeovilton and seeing a rare model of a rare aircraft once based at the station? A coincidence deepened by the fact that my father worked on the maintenance of the radio and radar of the original aircraft that bore the number XP924.

Jung would perhaps have found a plethora of reasons as to why the coincidence might seem meaningful. Perhaps the meaning is to be found in confronting thoughts that were troubling during childhood, perhaps the meaning is to be found in an affirmation of the times, perhaps the meaning is to be found in facing all the Vixen-like fears that might inhabit the subconscious..

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